On Tuesday I was asked if I thought having a baby changed me and I couldn’t answer the question. I began to think to myself, changed me how; I am the same person I was before I had Lee. For some reason that question remained with me and I began to wonder, have I changed and if so how have I changed. So, have I changed? And the answer would be yes, I have changed. It’s obvious that my life has changed as far as sleeping like I use to, shopping like I use to, and going any where I wanted to go when ever I wanted t go. But how have I changed under the surface.
Emotionally, my heart made room to love someone else; so I am not as selfish as I was before I had Lee. I have began to place his needs first, and I though that it would not happen. For 32 years I only had to think about myself and now I have a little person that I have to think about and provide for. The shift in the way that I think is something that just happened; I really can’t tell you when the shift actually took place, but it did. I am also a little disconnected for my husband, family, and friends because I am all into Lee. So, my relationships have changed emotionally. I haven’t found that balance yet, and that can be very frustrating for everyone. Lastly, I have become more patience. I found myself taking more deep breathe and just saying to myself he is just a baby.
I am sure that I will continue to change over time, but for now these are some of the traits that I have noticed that have changed. I have conversed with alot of women and they all talked about the obvious changes that will happen, so I was ready for those changes; but I didn’t know that I would change as person so much. I still desire the same things I have always desired, but this world looks different to me now that I have become a parent. I can’t tell you when the transformation took place but it did. And if any of you out there are pregnant please be aware that you will transform too.